Why Oh, Why??

I haven't been getting any hours at work. This week I got only 14 hours. I went to talk to somebody about picking up more shifts so I picked up a shift for Sunday, Tuesday and Wednesday that took me up to 35 hours. That is more like it. I hate it when they don't give me any hours. Anyway, I totally regret taking a Sunday shift. My dad put his name in to win some tickets for the Mariner game on Sunday and he won. I was already planning on going with him if he won the tickets but completely spaced it when I was picking up shifts. I was really bummed that I couldn't go. Julie went with him instead. Jenny and my Mom went up with them too and took both Jaden and Gabe. My mom, Jenny, Jaden, and Gabe stayed at my grandparent's house while Julie and my Dad went to the Mariner game. They sat behind home plate like 18 rows up. When I heard that, I was so angey at myself for picking up that stupid shift for Sunday.

It was the first time that my grandparents got to see the babies. They were both really excited I heard, to see them. My grandma had a hard time picking up Jaden though cause he is such a chunker!! So, I guess she held Gabe for most of the time. I heard that jaden played on the piano my grandma has with Jenny and had an absolute blast that he was making all of this noise. They had a really good time up there it sounds like and I really wished that I could have been apart of it.

No Car for me.... AGAIN!!

Well, it turns out that I won't be able to get Julie and Nathan's car after all. They took it in to see hoe much it is worth and it isworth $6800. That is WAY above my limit. My dad called the insurance people to find out how much my incurance would go up if I got this car, and they told them that it would go up to $277 a month. I don't think I could afford that and make payments on a car. It's just such a bummer because I really thought that this was the car that God wanted me to have. When my parent's car got stolen in December and I started to look for a car on my own, I was just very determined to find a car, and I wasn't asking for God's help in anything. Julie told me to just give it up to God and see what he has for me. When he wants me to find a car, he will give it to me. Well I did give the situation up to him and when this came along, I really thought that this was the car that he wanted me to have. I guess not. So, suffice to say....I'm still looking for a car. :'(

A Car!!!

Julie and Nathan are wanting to get a new car and they said that they would sell their car to me. They are going in to see how much they can ask for it and there's a good chance that I will buy it. I really hope that this will go through so that I will be able to have a car soon. This is pretty much what their car looks like...

21st Birthday

Yesterday was my 21st birthday. I didn't really do anything special. I had to go to Betty's wedding at 2:00 in the afternoon and the wedding lasted a whole hour. Julie and I got there about 10 minutes late just trying to get everything ready with Jaden and everything. Luckily the wedding hadn't started yet. We went up to the balcony. I was surprised to see a bunch of people in the balcony. I was hoping that there wouldn't hardly be anybody up there but a lot of people came to her wedding. There was a worship service during the ceremony. It was different but nice. I don't think that I would want to do that though. Overall, it was a nice wedding. Betty looked really beautiful. Her dress was gorgeous! After the wedding, Julie and I went down to see the flowers that Julie had arranged for her wedding. We wanted to leave almost right after the wedding. So we went downstairs and mingled for a bit, and then we went upstairs where my parents were and talked to them for a bit before leaving. A little later everybody went to Red Robin for dinner for my birthday. Julie wanted me to get a Bailey's Shake but I wasn't sure that I would like it and I didn't want to waste money if I didn't. Jacob ended up getting a rasberry margerita and I shared that with him. After dinner, Jenny and Bryan went home and everybody else went back to my parents house. Jacob and I looked at some movie times and decided to go see Shrek 3. All I can say about that movie is BORING! Not at all as good as the first two.

On Sunday, I planned to go to 2nd service with Jacob after he got off of work but I didn't get up in time. I don't think that I got a lot of sleep. Lately, I have not been getting any sleep at night. Like two nights in a row I didn't get any sleep at all. Ugh! I don't know what is going on with me. Anyway, so everybody came over to my parent's house after church and Jenny and I made lunch. We made the tostadas with mexican rice. I think that that is one of my favorite meals. After lunch, all the dads opened their gifts and everything and then we just lounged around the house until about 6 or 7. Julie came up with going to Big Al's in Vancouver where they have this huge bowling alley and arcade and stuff like that. My mom and my dad weren't going to play and watch the grandbabies. We were going to do it guys against the girls, so I asked if Jacob could come along. Jacob got to our house and then we were off to Big Al's. We played two games. I completely sucked the first game. I got a whoppin' 45 I think. The second game I didn't do so bad. I ended up with like 98 or somewhere around there. I almost beat Jacob too. I was ahead of him the whole 2nd game until like the last two frames. Jenny stopped playing in the middle of the second 'cause she had to hold Gabe so Bryan bowled for her. The guys ended up beating the girls No surprise there. It was alot of fun though. Definitly something I am going to want to do again. After bowling we decided to go to Old Chicago but Gabe wouldn't stop crying in the car, so Bryan and Jenny had to go home. And Julie thought that Jaden had enough to so just me and Jacob went out to dinner. We were going to go to Old Chicago but I had to be home at 11 and it was already like 10:15 at the time so we decided to go to Guisseppes instead since it was closer to home.

Monday, I went to work at 4 and got off at 10. They had me on salesfloor. I thought that they were going to put me in electronics since I have only been trained electronics on the salesfloor but they put me in Jewerly and Shoes. I had no idea how to work Jewelry. Jacob tried to get me out of it and be put upstairs with him when he got to work but they said no. So, when the opening person was about to leave and give me the keys, I asked her to just give a little training on what to do back there. It turned out not be a bad night. I didn't get anything that I rally couldn't answer, so I was happy with that. I only worfked 6 hours that day so I didn't get a lunch. You have to make sure that you clock out about five minutes early so that you don't go over your six hours and get compliance. I guess its a state law that you have to have a lunch if you work over 6 hours otherwise you will get written up. So when I go to work I clocked in at 3:55, I had to make sure that I clock out before 9:55 so that I wouldn't get compliance. At like 9:30, Marcus who was the closing TLOD, asked me to just make sure that all of the shoes were picked up off the floor and everything before I left. So, I was up at customer service at like 9:50, just putting things I found lying around that weren't supposed to be there. Marcus comes up to me and was all like, "Janell, I really don't need you to be doing this right now." I was all like, "Marcus, I already did everything that you asked me to do. All of the shoes are off of the floor and everything. I am just putting these last few things away and then go clock out." He's all like, "Well, I ned to do a walk through, just to make sure." Stupid Jerk! If you asked me to do something before I leave, I will do it!! So, buy the time I had turned in the keys and clocked out it was 9:57. If I didn't have to walk back, I would have made it out on time. So, now I am going to get compliance. Arg!

On Tuesday, I had my family party. My uncle came over and looked at our computer because it has been acting up lately. Turns out we have to take it in for repairs. When we had first bought the computer, my dad also bought a 3 yr extended warrenty on it just in case something went wrong with it. Well, the warrenty would have been done in the beginning in July of this year, so it happened just in the nick of time. Julie left at 2 to go hang out with one of her friends that she hasn't seen for a long time and left Jaden with me. I fed him at 2:30 and put him to sleep after he was done. He slept for about 30-45 minutes. He looked like he wanted to play for a bit, so I brought the baby einstein up and let him play for awhile. When I got down on the floor to play with him, he smelled a little funky and it turns out that he pooped his pants. By this time it was like 4:20 and Julie was supposed to be home at 4. I called her up and asked her when she was planning on coming home. She thought that Jaden was starting to get fussy but I said no I just want you to come home and change his poopy diaper. She said she would leave in like 10-15 minutes. I waited for a bit but he was just really stinky and I couldn't stand it anymore so I went downstairs to change him. While I was changing him, I lifted up his legs so that I could wipe inside his crack and get all the poopies out, he held onto his feet so that I didn't have too and I could focus on getting the poopies out. I was cute. After that, it was all baby fresh bottom. Nathan came home first and then Julie. She called me after I changed him and said that the traffic was horrible so it is going to take her a little but longer to get home. Soon after that, everybody came over and we all went to Sweet Tomatoes for dinner. Then we went out to the Clackamas Target and grab a few essentials. Soon after that when we were all ready to leave, we came home and did my b-day party. I got a lot of neat stuff. Oh, and my mom made me wear this like silver mullet for my entire party. It was a little embrassing to wear that in front of my boyfriend but oh well. Overall, I had a good birthday and I am grateful for everything that everyone has gotten me!

Here are some pictures....

Almost...

Last Thrusday, Jacob and I got in a fight. It pretty much lasted until yesterday. On Sunday, I went to church early for worship team practice and he came 2nd service and sat with me. After church him, me, my mom and my dad went to FX for lunch. He didn't really say much during lunch. I thought that we were fine and everything but he wasn't talking as much as he would normally. Anyway, after kunch we went to this coffee shop that is like connected to this church and we got into a fight there. We were just saying things back and forth and at one point he said is that your way of breaking up with me and I said no. We talked about it a little bit more and I thought that we were okay. I had to be back at the church at 4:30 for the evening service practice so when he dropped me off everything was fine. He came back for the evening service. We did communion so I basically had to sit up at the front for the most part since we were going to be singing throughout the service. After the service, Jacob and I helped my mom get everything cleaned up cause it goes a lot faster when there are a few people helping getting things ready for the next communion. There was an ice cream social after the service and I didn't really want to go so Jacob was going to take me home. On the way home, he hardly ever talked to me. I would ask him what was wrong and he would say nothing so I just left it at that and was trying to have a conversation with him. Earlier in the week, he got his car broken into and his stereo was stolen so with him not talking to me, it was just an awkward silence pretty much the whole way home. We got to our house and we were walked up to my front door when Julie opened it and was like can you go get some formula for me. I didn't want to spend anymore time with Jacob since he was acting weird and everything plus I was just really tired and just wanted to go homed and stay home. So, we ended up going down to Safeway when he finally started to tell me what was on his mind. It was pretty much everything that we had talked about earlier and I didn;t understand why he was bringing it up again. We talked down at Safeway for like an hour when we finally went in and grab the formula and went back to my house where we sat in his car and talked some more. We were both crying and everything and I was going to break up with him. We came to the conclusion that we are going to take a step back and take this relationship slower. We went into the house and told everybody what was going on and everything. It was nice just to get everyone on the same page and letting everyone know what was going on. He left a little bit afterwards, and I was talking to my mom a little bit about it. I told her that I wasn't sure how I felt about him and if I could really marry this guy. She told me that she thought that we should have broke up for a while so that I could figure out how I was feeling towards him. On monday, I hadn't talked to him all day and I think that just brought up another problem so on tuesday he came over to the house and we were talking about it some more and we were to the point that we were going to break up for good. I came to the conclusion that I am not ready to end the relationship because I do care for him and I want to see if in fact this is the guy that God wants me to marry. Sure, there are things that bother me about him but who doesn't have things that bother you about somebody. I don't think that made sense but you get what I mean. So...there were a couple of close calls but we worked through it and I think became stronger as a couple because of it.

On a lighter note.... on monday, Amber called me a couple of times and left me a message about wanting to know something about work like wondering if I would switch shifts with her or something like that and she told me to give a call at work or if it was after 9 then to give her a call on her cell phone. The other one she left me right after the first one goes..okay it not really about work, can you give me a call back. So about like 8:30 or somewhere in there I give her a call back and asked here what was up. She told me that her and Thao (she's the other girl i work with) want to take me out for me b-day! I was really excited that they wanted to do that for me. She asked if I could skip out on youth group next week since we all have that night off. So, I am not sure what we are going to be doing yet but I can't wait to go out with them!

Yay for Me

On Monday I babysat Jaden with my dad and Nathan. Julie, Jenny, and my mom went to Betty's bridal shower. I didn't want to go so Julie was like, Then you get to babysit Jaden. I was really worried about doing it because for Jenny's shower my dad and Nathan watched Jaden so that Julie could go too. Well, like an hour into it, Nathan and my dad were trying to get a hold of her because Jaden was just hysterical. He would not stop crying. As soon as Julie got home and took him in her arms, he stopped crying. I was worried that he was going to do the same thing again. Well, Julie and my mom left for the shower and I was taking care of Jaden. In a half hour/45 minutes, my dad and I took him for about a 20-25 minute walk. We came home and I rocked him to sleep. I was very surprised that I was able to do that 'cause it only seems like my mom and Julie can get him to go to sleep. Needless to say, I was proud of myself. Julie and my mom came home about an hour later and Julie was excited that I had been able to get him to go to sleep. I am glad that nothing went wrong and Julie was able to go out for a few hours without having to worry how Jaden was doing.

Electronics...

So I am getting trained in a new department at work. I asked to be trained sales floor and I guess they thought that I would be best in electronics. Well needless to say, I didn't agree with them. I didn't want to be trained in electronics. I wanted to be like softlines or something like that. Anyway, my first day training back there was last friday and when I got there, the guy that was supposed to be training me didn't know that he had too. So, he trained me for about a half hour and then went up to guest service to check on something and never came back for like 3 hours. Then when he did come back he told me that he was going to lunch. I was a little nervous about being back there because you really have to be electronic savvy and I am not. I got a lot of questions that I realy didn't know the answers too and I kinda made it up as I went along. Not really good for the customers but what are you going to do when the person that is supposed to be training you disappears?? Anyway, towards the end of the night it ended up not being so bad. I actually enjoy working back there. The one thing I don't like about it though is the prepaid phones. I always had trouble with these at guest service. I don't really understand what it is that you are supposed to do. I mean I know you buy the phone and get the prepaid phone card. But I have no idea if you are able to get on the internet with these things or have much you can talk with a $20 phone card. It doesn't really say one the cards. And I also don't know what the difference there is between the different phones. Oh well, I guess I will learn it in time.

My friend Amber at work it leaving. :( She put in her two week notice. I am sad cause she is one of the people that I have really gotten close to at work. I knew that she was going to quit eventually but she wasn't going to do it for like another six months. She just got married on May 12th. Her husband got this new job where he had to wait six months to get benifits which is why she was going to wait to quit. Well, they found out that he got his benifits right away and so she doesn't have to work anymore. I am really going to be bummed when she leaves.

My dad got an e-mail from Jonathan the day before yesterday saying that he found me a really nice car for $6200. It is above my price range but I do want to go through with these people because then I know that I would be getting a nice car. It is a '98 toyota corolla. automatic with a cassette player. I am not sure of what the color it is yet. But if Jonathan says that it is a nice car, than I am going to believe him. I am ready to get my own car. I am tired of looking and am willing to pay whatever to get a car. Even if that means that I am going have to get a loan and probably work alot more to pay this thing off.