Having some fall fun

Audrey had lots of fun playing outside and helping grandpa rake all the leaves that were covering our backyard.





Jaden helped me make a pumpkin roll. We had lots of fun spilling flour and sugar all over the place! He is a good helper!

Forgiven

I really can't stand it when people say that they don't like christian songs. I feel like that is one of the ways that God speaks to me the most is from music. It's been that way for a long time. Sometimes I feel like he is speaking directly to me through that song. Sometimes, most of the time, I have already heard the song before but it just didn't relate to what I was going through until now. This song was playing on the radio and I had just felt like this song was wrote for me.

Forgiven
By: Sanctus Real

Well the past is playing with my head
And failure knocks me down again
I'm reminded of the wrong
That I have said and done
And the devil just won't let me forget

In this life
I know what I've been
But here in your arms
I know what I am

I'm forgiven
I'm forgiven
And I don't have to carry
The weight of who I've been
Cause I'm forgiven

My mistakes are running through my mind
And I'll relive my days, in
the middle of the night
When I struggle with my pain,
wrestle with my pride
Sometimes I feel alone, and I cry

In this life
I know what I've been
But here in your arms
I know what I am

I'm forgiven
I'm forgiven
And I don't have to carry
The weight of who I've been
Cause I'm forgiven

When I don't fit in and
I don't feel like I belong anywhere
When I don't measure up to much in this life
Oh, I'm a treasure in the arms of Christ
'Cause

I'm forgiven
I'm forgiven
And I don't have to carry
The weight of who I've been
Cause I'm forgiven

Feels like Halloween was yesterday...

Seriously feels like Halloween was not that far ago but here were are a week from Thanksgiving. Seriously need to update my blog more often, or at least try to remember to. We started out the afternoon by going to the Outlet mall with the fam minus Jen and Bryan and the kids but got to have Stacey, Tarynn, and Nancy join us. After that, we hung around the house and ate dinner before we went out and TOT around the neighborhood. I was so surprised how well Audrey did. My whole thought process before we went was that I was going to have to give her a piece of the candy to show her that she was getting treats because I really thought she was not going to go up to people and get it from them. But to my surprise she was an absolute pro at this. You wouldn't think that this would be her first year doing this. I even had one person ask me how old she is because she just so good at going up to them and saying, 'ick o eee'! :) Needless to say she was so exhausted from the whole day that she slept REALLY good through the night!

Extremely Late but Happy 4th Birthday Jaden!!

It was such an awesome party! My mom and sister did a great job putting all of this together. Happy 4th birthday Jaden! I can't believe it's been four years since he's been born. It feels just like yesterday I was going up with my sister to see him in the NICU from being born at albs and 8 ozs! I love being his aunt and it has been a joy being able to watch him grow up into this incredible handsome and smart little boy that consistently asks me all about Star Wars!! Love you lots Jaden!

Beautiful

There are times where I will sit and wonder whether God has somebody out there for me and when He will finally reveal the person who I am meant to be with; if there is such a person. Is there someone who will love me for all that I am? But what kind of question is that when the One that created me, loves me enough to die for me. Why would I question that and why should it not be enough?

'Beautiful' - Mercy Me

Days will come when you don't have the strength
And all you hear is you're not worth anything
Wondering if you ever could be loved
And if they truly saw your heart
They'd see too much

You're beautiful, You're beautiful
You are made for so much more than all of this
You're beautiful, You're beautiful
You are treasured, you are sacred, you are His
You're beautiful

Praying that you have the heart to fight
Cuz you are more than what is hurting you tonight
For all the lies you've held inside so long
But they are nothing in the shadow of the cross

You're beautiful, You're beautiful
You are made for so much more than all of this
You're beautiful, You're beautiful
You are treasured, you are sacred, you are His
You're beautiful

Before you ever took a breath
Long before the world began
Of all the wonders He possessed
There was one more precious
Of all the earth and skies above
You're the one He madly loves
Enough to die!

You're beautiful, You're beautiful
In His eyes

You're beautiful!
You are made for so much more than all of this
You're beautiful!
You are treasured, you are sacred, you are His
You're beautiful!
You are made for so much more than all of this
You're beautiful!
You are treasured
You are sacred
You are His

Thank you Lord Jesus for loving me the way that I am. Whether or not you have somebody planned to be my husband, I should and will know that You are enough. Thank you for loving me enough to die on the cross for me.