Having some fall fun

Audrey had lots of fun playing outside and helping grandpa rake all the leaves that were covering our backyard.





Jaden helped me make a pumpkin roll. We had lots of fun spilling flour and sugar all over the place! He is a good helper!

Forgiven

I really can't stand it when people say that they don't like christian songs. I feel like that is one of the ways that God speaks to me the most is from music. It's been that way for a long time. Sometimes I feel like he is speaking directly to me through that song. Sometimes, most of the time, I have already heard the song before but it just didn't relate to what I was going through until now. This song was playing on the radio and I had just felt like this song was wrote for me.

Forgiven
By: Sanctus Real

Well the past is playing with my head
And failure knocks me down again
I'm reminded of the wrong
That I have said and done
And the devil just won't let me forget

In this life
I know what I've been
But here in your arms
I know what I am

I'm forgiven
I'm forgiven
And I don't have to carry
The weight of who I've been
Cause I'm forgiven

My mistakes are running through my mind
And I'll relive my days, in
the middle of the night
When I struggle with my pain,
wrestle with my pride
Sometimes I feel alone, and I cry

In this life
I know what I've been
But here in your arms
I know what I am

I'm forgiven
I'm forgiven
And I don't have to carry
The weight of who I've been
Cause I'm forgiven

When I don't fit in and
I don't feel like I belong anywhere
When I don't measure up to much in this life
Oh, I'm a treasure in the arms of Christ
'Cause

I'm forgiven
I'm forgiven
And I don't have to carry
The weight of who I've been
Cause I'm forgiven

Feels like Halloween was yesterday...

Seriously feels like Halloween was not that far ago but here were are a week from Thanksgiving. Seriously need to update my blog more often, or at least try to remember to. We started out the afternoon by going to the Outlet mall with the fam minus Jen and Bryan and the kids but got to have Stacey, Tarynn, and Nancy join us. After that, we hung around the house and ate dinner before we went out and TOT around the neighborhood. I was so surprised how well Audrey did. My whole thought process before we went was that I was going to have to give her a piece of the candy to show her that she was getting treats because I really thought she was not going to go up to people and get it from them. But to my surprise she was an absolute pro at this. You wouldn't think that this would be her first year doing this. I even had one person ask me how old she is because she just so good at going up to them and saying, 'ick o eee'! :) Needless to say she was so exhausted from the whole day that she slept REALLY good through the night!

Extremely Late but Happy 4th Birthday Jaden!!

It was such an awesome party! My mom and sister did a great job putting all of this together. Happy 4th birthday Jaden! I can't believe it's been four years since he's been born. It feels just like yesterday I was going up with my sister to see him in the NICU from being born at albs and 8 ozs! I love being his aunt and it has been a joy being able to watch him grow up into this incredible handsome and smart little boy that consistently asks me all about Star Wars!! Love you lots Jaden!

Beautiful

There are times where I will sit and wonder whether God has somebody out there for me and when He will finally reveal the person who I am meant to be with; if there is such a person. Is there someone who will love me for all that I am? But what kind of question is that when the One that created me, loves me enough to die for me. Why would I question that and why should it not be enough?

'Beautiful' - Mercy Me

Days will come when you don't have the strength
And all you hear is you're not worth anything
Wondering if you ever could be loved
And if they truly saw your heart
They'd see too much

You're beautiful, You're beautiful
You are made for so much more than all of this
You're beautiful, You're beautiful
You are treasured, you are sacred, you are His
You're beautiful

Praying that you have the heart to fight
Cuz you are more than what is hurting you tonight
For all the lies you've held inside so long
But they are nothing in the shadow of the cross

You're beautiful, You're beautiful
You are made for so much more than all of this
You're beautiful, You're beautiful
You are treasured, you are sacred, you are His
You're beautiful

Before you ever took a breath
Long before the world began
Of all the wonders He possessed
There was one more precious
Of all the earth and skies above
You're the one He madly loves
Enough to die!

You're beautiful, You're beautiful
In His eyes

You're beautiful!
You are made for so much more than all of this
You're beautiful!
You are treasured, you are sacred, you are His
You're beautiful!
You are made for so much more than all of this
You're beautiful!
You are treasured
You are sacred
You are His

Thank you Lord Jesus for loving me the way that I am. Whether or not you have somebody planned to be my husband, I should and will know that You are enough. Thank you for loving me enough to die on the cross for me.

My 3 nephews

Love them!

Struggling...

I really been struggling lately. I feel like as if I'm walking, when I try to take a step forward, my foot just seems to dangle there in midair, trying to figure out which way to go. Then, out of nowhere, Julie starts to listen to my favorite Relient K cd 'Mhmm', and it goes to this one song called 'More than Useless'. It never ceases to amaze me how God can talk to me through the smallest things. I've listened to this sone numerous times but it never really affected me before the way it does now. Thank you God for never giving up on me or stop loving me.

"More Than Useless"

I feel like, I would like
To be somewhere else doing something that matters
And I'll admit here, while I sit here
My mind wastes away and my doubts start to gather

Whats the purpose? It feels worthless
So unwanted like I've lost all my value
I can't find it, not in the least bit
and I'm just scared, so scared that I'll fail you

And sometimes I think that I'm not any good at all
And sometimes I wonder why, why I'm even here at all
But then you assure me

I'm a little more than useless
And when I think that I can't do this
You promise me that I'll get through this
And do something right
Do something right for once

So I say if I can't, do something significant
I'll opt to leave most opportunities wasted
And nothing trivial, that life could give me will
Measure up to what might have replaced it

Too late look, my date book
Is packed full of days that were empty and now gone
And I bet, that regret
Will prove to get me to improve in the long run

And sometimes I think that I'm not any good at all
And sometimes I wonder why, why I'm even here at all
But then you assure me

I'm a little more than useless
And when I think that I can't do this
You promise me that I'll get through this
And do something right
Do something right for once

I’m a little more than useless
And I never knew I knew this
Was gonna the day, gonna be the day
That I would do something right
Do something right for once

I notice, I know this
Week is a symbol of how I use my time
Resent it, I spent it
Convincing myself the world's doing just fine
Without me
Doing anything of any consequence
Without me
Showing any sign of ever making sense
Of my time , it's my life
And my right, to use it like I should
Like he would, for the good
Of everything that I would ever know

I'm a little more than useless
When I think that I can't do this
You promise me that I'll get through this
And do something right
Do something right for once

I’m a little more than useless
And I never knew I knew this
Was gonna the day, gonna be the day
That I would do something right
Do something right for once

Bridgeport Village

On Sunday, Audrey, Grandma, grandpa, and myself went to Bridgeport to shop and play in the little kids area that they have in the middle of their shopping area. Audrey ended yp playing in this little fountain/splash pad the whole entire time. (the kids play area was more targeted to kids 5 & up.) It was really hot out so it was nice to be able to play around in the water. We ate at Pastini's and had some yummy gelato for desert.

My new nephew

Welcome to my new baby nephew: Jayce K. Rogers!! He was born 7.10.10 at 1:16pm. He weighed in at 7lb 13oz and was 20 in. long!





Audrey loves her new cousin! Anytime he is around and she sees him, she will run up to him saying, 'BABY! BABY!'. It makes me happy that she always wants to see Jayce and want to kiss his toes and be a good big cousin instead of being a little stinker and not want anything to do with him at all.

Seeing Jenny go through her pregnancy and birth made me want to look back at all the photos of Audrey as a baby. It makes me all teary eyed to look back at all the photos and videos I have of her as a baby and just realizing that I DON'T have a baby anymore. I have a toddler. *sniff* She is just growing up too fast! It Literally FLEW right by! I just love her to pieces!

I cannot get enough of my new nephew! He is just the cutest thing ever! I am so PROUD to be an aunt of three boys! I love them all!

Beautiful Day!!

It was such a beautiful sunny day outside, that Jenny, Julie and I decided to take the kids to the Fairview park to play. They had so much fun climbing, sliding and running around. Although Audrey had a hard time keeping up with the boys (not that they wanted her around. I can totally forsee they boys forming a 'No Girls Allowed' Club when they get older.) Afterwards, we walked along the trail that goes through the woods and ends up at the fairview target. The boys had fun throwing rocks into the creek and running along the trail. We ended with going to target and getting icee's for the boys and then headed home. Fun Day!

Happy Mother's Day!

Mom with all of her grandkiddos.




Mom with her two sons-in-law.




Mom with her kids.





Audrey and I on my 2nd Mother's Day.

Almost...

Audrey walking only holding onto one hand now. I think we are almost there!!

fun in the park

Audrey and I went out with Amber, Autumn and Thao to a park to have a picnic and let the kids play around outside. It was such a warm day out, it was so nice to be able to be outside. Audrey and Autumn had a lot of fun swinging at the dandelions and taking their sweet time walking around the park.

trying to be creative

Audrey was down taking a nap so I went outside to enjoy the sunshine. As I was sitting there I thought that I would just go around taking random pictures of the flowers in our yard. These are just a few of my favorites...

This is one of my favorite verses. Just thought it would look kinda cool putting it with a flower picture...

audrey splashing in the pool

this is audrey splashing in the pool when we went to montavilla park on 4th of july.

4th of july fun

on 4th of july, the fam went to montavilla park to go swimming. jen, bryan and gabe got there before the rest of us and were already in the pool having fun. i fed audrey half her bottle on the way there and mom finished giving her bottle after we all got settled in, then they came in the pool to join the fun. gabe just got done with swimming lessons and was just having a ball. he should all the things that he learned. he also wanted to go sown the slide about a million times and almost karate-chopped bryan in the head, catching him! lol jaden went down a couple of times too, but wasn't that thrilled with it. audrey had an absolute blast being in the pool. you could say that she was definitely in her element...being outside and in a pool to keep her cool. my baby is so hot-blooded. i have no idea where she go that. she will sweat when it is like 60 degrees outside.

after the pool, we went home and had a bbq and then later to jen and bryan's to watch fireworks. i was afraid that audrey might not like the fireworks because of the loud noises but she was completely intrigued by them. gabe did better this year too. last year, he wouldn't be outside to watch the fireworks cause he was too scared of them. not this year though, he was right in on the action. jaden did a couple of sparklers and had fun watching the fireworks. at one point, he was standing at the edge of the sidewalk to trying to blow one of them out. lol too funny. all in all, it was a good day. completely wiped audrey out for the night.


happy first 4th of july, audrey!

audrey eats cereal for the first time

july 4th, 2009
audrey ate rice cereal for the first time. she did such a good job. she knew how to open her mouth and chew her food. she didn't have any reactions to it at all which is good. i've been feeding it to her at least once a day so that she can get used to it. i can't believe how fast she is growing!

audrey rolling over

audrey rolled over all by herself tonight. i was so excited that she has finally learned to roll over by herself. she rolled from her tummy to her back about 3-4 times! yay! way to go audrey! i am a bit excited about this cause i've been waiting and waiting for her to finally roll over!

airport!

audrey went to the airport for the first time on wednesday. we thought that it would be fun to go eat dinner there, and let the boys play at the little play structure that they have there and watch planes come in and take off. while we ate dinner, we sat by the window so we could watch the planes. the boys had a blast watching them. whenever we go to ikea, at the end, we usually sit outside for a bit to watch the planes since it goes directly over ikea. jaden and gabe met a new friend at the play structure. a plane started to take off so the boys and their new friend ran to the window to watch. it was cute. audrey was a good girl too. i took her down the slide and held her by the window so that she could see the planes too. though if she actually saw them, i don't know. lol

audrey scootin'...

i got home from work tonight and my mom was giving audrey a bath. afterwards, we brought her down and got her in her pj's and all that jazz. well, we thought that we would put her on her tummy for a little while and yo my great surprise, audrey sort of went up on her knees and scooted forward a little bit. i guess we are just going to bypass the whole rolling over thing and go straight on to scootin/crawling. :)