Beautiful

There are times where I will sit and wonder whether God has somebody out there for me and when He will finally reveal the person who I am meant to be with; if there is such a person. Is there someone who will love me for all that I am? But what kind of question is that when the One that created me, loves me enough to die for me. Why would I question that and why should it not be enough?

'Beautiful' - Mercy Me

Days will come when you don't have the strength
And all you hear is you're not worth anything
Wondering if you ever could be loved
And if they truly saw your heart
They'd see too much

You're beautiful, You're beautiful
You are made for so much more than all of this
You're beautiful, You're beautiful
You are treasured, you are sacred, you are His
You're beautiful

Praying that you have the heart to fight
Cuz you are more than what is hurting you tonight
For all the lies you've held inside so long
But they are nothing in the shadow of the cross

You're beautiful, You're beautiful
You are made for so much more than all of this
You're beautiful, You're beautiful
You are treasured, you are sacred, you are His
You're beautiful

Before you ever took a breath
Long before the world began
Of all the wonders He possessed
There was one more precious
Of all the earth and skies above
You're the one He madly loves
Enough to die!

You're beautiful, You're beautiful
In His eyes

You're beautiful!
You are made for so much more than all of this
You're beautiful!
You are treasured, you are sacred, you are His
You're beautiful!
You are made for so much more than all of this
You're beautiful!
You are treasured
You are sacred
You are His

Thank you Lord Jesus for loving me the way that I am. Whether or not you have somebody planned to be my husband, I should and will know that You are enough. Thank you for loving me enough to die on the cross for me.

My 3 nephews

Love them!

Struggling...

I really been struggling lately. I feel like as if I'm walking, when I try to take a step forward, my foot just seems to dangle there in midair, trying to figure out which way to go. Then, out of nowhere, Julie starts to listen to my favorite Relient K cd 'Mhmm', and it goes to this one song called 'More than Useless'. It never ceases to amaze me how God can talk to me through the smallest things. I've listened to this sone numerous times but it never really affected me before the way it does now. Thank you God for never giving up on me or stop loving me.

"More Than Useless"

I feel like, I would like
To be somewhere else doing something that matters
And I'll admit here, while I sit here
My mind wastes away and my doubts start to gather

Whats the purpose? It feels worthless
So unwanted like I've lost all my value
I can't find it, not in the least bit
and I'm just scared, so scared that I'll fail you

And sometimes I think that I'm not any good at all
And sometimes I wonder why, why I'm even here at all
But then you assure me

I'm a little more than useless
And when I think that I can't do this
You promise me that I'll get through this
And do something right
Do something right for once

So I say if I can't, do something significant
I'll opt to leave most opportunities wasted
And nothing trivial, that life could give me will
Measure up to what might have replaced it

Too late look, my date book
Is packed full of days that were empty and now gone
And I bet, that regret
Will prove to get me to improve in the long run

And sometimes I think that I'm not any good at all
And sometimes I wonder why, why I'm even here at all
But then you assure me

I'm a little more than useless
And when I think that I can't do this
You promise me that I'll get through this
And do something right
Do something right for once

I’m a little more than useless
And I never knew I knew this
Was gonna the day, gonna be the day
That I would do something right
Do something right for once

I notice, I know this
Week is a symbol of how I use my time
Resent it, I spent it
Convincing myself the world's doing just fine
Without me
Doing anything of any consequence
Without me
Showing any sign of ever making sense
Of my time , it's my life
And my right, to use it like I should
Like he would, for the good
Of everything that I would ever know

I'm a little more than useless
When I think that I can't do this
You promise me that I'll get through this
And do something right
Do something right for once

I’m a little more than useless
And I never knew I knew this
Was gonna the day, gonna be the day
That I would do something right
Do something right for once

Bridgeport Village

On Sunday, Audrey, Grandma, grandpa, and myself went to Bridgeport to shop and play in the little kids area that they have in the middle of their shopping area. Audrey ended yp playing in this little fountain/splash pad the whole entire time. (the kids play area was more targeted to kids 5 & up.) It was really hot out so it was nice to be able to play around in the water. We ate at Pastini's and had some yummy gelato for desert.

My new nephew

Welcome to my new baby nephew: Jayce K. Rogers!! He was born 7.10.10 at 1:16pm. He weighed in at 7lb 13oz and was 20 in. long!





Audrey loves her new cousin! Anytime he is around and she sees him, she will run up to him saying, 'BABY! BABY!'. It makes me happy that she always wants to see Jayce and want to kiss his toes and be a good big cousin instead of being a little stinker and not want anything to do with him at all.

Seeing Jenny go through her pregnancy and birth made me want to look back at all the photos of Audrey as a baby. It makes me all teary eyed to look back at all the photos and videos I have of her as a baby and just realizing that I DON'T have a baby anymore. I have a toddler. *sniff* She is just growing up too fast! It Literally FLEW right by! I just love her to pieces!

I cannot get enough of my new nephew! He is just the cutest thing ever! I am so PROUD to be an aunt of three boys! I love them all!

Beautiful Day!!

It was such a beautiful sunny day outside, that Jenny, Julie and I decided to take the kids to the Fairview park to play. They had so much fun climbing, sliding and running around. Although Audrey had a hard time keeping up with the boys (not that they wanted her around. I can totally forsee they boys forming a 'No Girls Allowed' Club when they get older.) Afterwards, we walked along the trail that goes through the woods and ends up at the fairview target. The boys had fun throwing rocks into the creek and running along the trail. We ended with going to target and getting icee's for the boys and then headed home. Fun Day!

Happy Mother's Day!

Mom with all of her grandkiddos.




Mom with her two sons-in-law.




Mom with her kids.





Audrey and I on my 2nd Mother's Day.

Almost...

Audrey walking only holding onto one hand now. I think we are almost there!!

fun in the park

Audrey and I went out with Amber, Autumn and Thao to a park to have a picnic and let the kids play around outside. It was such a warm day out, it was so nice to be able to be outside. Audrey and Autumn had a lot of fun swinging at the dandelions and taking their sweet time walking around the park.

trying to be creative

Audrey was down taking a nap so I went outside to enjoy the sunshine. As I was sitting there I thought that I would just go around taking random pictures of the flowers in our yard. These are just a few of my favorites...

This is one of my favorite verses. Just thought it would look kinda cool putting it with a flower picture...

audrey splashing in the pool

this is audrey splashing in the pool when we went to montavilla park on 4th of july.

4th of july fun

on 4th of july, the fam went to montavilla park to go swimming. jen, bryan and gabe got there before the rest of us and were already in the pool having fun. i fed audrey half her bottle on the way there and mom finished giving her bottle after we all got settled in, then they came in the pool to join the fun. gabe just got done with swimming lessons and was just having a ball. he should all the things that he learned. he also wanted to go sown the slide about a million times and almost karate-chopped bryan in the head, catching him! lol jaden went down a couple of times too, but wasn't that thrilled with it. audrey had an absolute blast being in the pool. you could say that she was definitely in her element...being outside and in a pool to keep her cool. my baby is so hot-blooded. i have no idea where she go that. she will sweat when it is like 60 degrees outside.

after the pool, we went home and had a bbq and then later to jen and bryan's to watch fireworks. i was afraid that audrey might not like the fireworks because of the loud noises but she was completely intrigued by them. gabe did better this year too. last year, he wouldn't be outside to watch the fireworks cause he was too scared of them. not this year though, he was right in on the action. jaden did a couple of sparklers and had fun watching the fireworks. at one point, he was standing at the edge of the sidewalk to trying to blow one of them out. lol too funny. all in all, it was a good day. completely wiped audrey out for the night.


happy first 4th of july, audrey!

audrey eats cereal for the first time

july 4th, 2009
audrey ate rice cereal for the first time. she did such a good job. she knew how to open her mouth and chew her food. she didn't have any reactions to it at all which is good. i've been feeding it to her at least once a day so that she can get used to it. i can't believe how fast she is growing!

audrey rolling over

audrey rolled over all by herself tonight. i was so excited that she has finally learned to roll over by herself. she rolled from her tummy to her back about 3-4 times! yay! way to go audrey! i am a bit excited about this cause i've been waiting and waiting for her to finally roll over!

airport!

audrey went to the airport for the first time on wednesday. we thought that it would be fun to go eat dinner there, and let the boys play at the little play structure that they have there and watch planes come in and take off. while we ate dinner, we sat by the window so we could watch the planes. the boys had a blast watching them. whenever we go to ikea, at the end, we usually sit outside for a bit to watch the planes since it goes directly over ikea. jaden and gabe met a new friend at the play structure. a plane started to take off so the boys and their new friend ran to the window to watch. it was cute. audrey was a good girl too. i took her down the slide and held her by the window so that she could see the planes too. though if she actually saw them, i don't know. lol

audrey scootin'...

i got home from work tonight and my mom was giving audrey a bath. afterwards, we brought her down and got her in her pj's and all that jazz. well, we thought that we would put her on her tummy for a little while and yo my great surprise, audrey sort of went up on her knees and scooted forward a little bit. i guess we are just going to bypass the whole rolling over thing and go straight on to scootin/crawling. :)

fun in the park...

Julie, Jaden, Jenny, Gabe, Audrey and myself went to fairview park today. It was a lot of fun to hang out and watch the boys climb all over the play structure. This was the first time that Audrey has been to the park. She watched the trees blow in the wind, her cousins play, and see the neighborhood cat. She also went down the slide a few times as well. She completely zonked out at the end right before we went on a walk on a little trail they have there. Overall, it was a fun little playdate!


Audrey excited to go to the park...






Jenny going down the slide...


Gabe's turn...


Audrey and I





I also wanted to make sure that I put down that Audrey rolled over for the first time by herself yesterday! We've been working really hard on that and she finally did it! yay!!

Happy Father's Day

My dad with his three girls...




Happy Father's day, Dad! Love ya

enchanted forest

Audrey had her 1st little trip to Enchanted forest for my uncle's birthday on May 27th. She did such an awesome job on the drive there, slept the whole way! We got there around 10:30 in the morning and there was absolutely no one there! It was fantastic. I hate crowds especially in places like that. All of us girls brought out huge strollers and wished that we didn't. That place is all STEEP uphills and downhills. It was hard to control them. Here are some of my fav. pics from the day...

All Smiles!!