Coloring

Audrey is really starting to love to color. Anytime she sees the color crayons she always ask, 'Color? Color?'. Here are some of the coloring that she has done.




Jaden and Grandpa helped Audrey color Snow White. Jaden colored her face and Grandpa helped color in the flowers.




I helped her color Ariel.

Having some fall fun

Audrey had lots of fun playing outside and helping grandpa rake all the leaves that were covering our backyard.





Jaden helped me make a pumpkin roll. We had lots of fun spilling flour and sugar all over the place! He is a good helper!

Forgiven

I really can't stand it when people say that they don't like christian songs. I feel like that is one of the ways that God speaks to me the most is from music. It's been that way for a long time. Sometimes I feel like he is speaking directly to me through that song. Sometimes, most of the time, I have already heard the song before but it just didn't relate to what I was going through until now. This song was playing on the radio and I had just felt like this song was wrote for me.

Forgiven
By: Sanctus Real

Well the past is playing with my head
And failure knocks me down again
I'm reminded of the wrong
That I have said and done
And the devil just won't let me forget

In this life
I know what I've been
But here in your arms
I know what I am

I'm forgiven
I'm forgiven
And I don't have to carry
The weight of who I've been
Cause I'm forgiven

My mistakes are running through my mind
And I'll relive my days, in
the middle of the night
When I struggle with my pain,
wrestle with my pride
Sometimes I feel alone, and I cry

In this life
I know what I've been
But here in your arms
I know what I am

I'm forgiven
I'm forgiven
And I don't have to carry
The weight of who I've been
Cause I'm forgiven

When I don't fit in and
I don't feel like I belong anywhere
When I don't measure up to much in this life
Oh, I'm a treasure in the arms of Christ
'Cause

I'm forgiven
I'm forgiven
And I don't have to carry
The weight of who I've been
Cause I'm forgiven

Feels like Halloween was yesterday...

Seriously feels like Halloween was not that far ago but here were are a week from Thanksgiving. Seriously need to update my blog more often, or at least try to remember to. We started out the afternoon by going to the Outlet mall with the fam minus Jen and Bryan and the kids but got to have Stacey, Tarynn, and Nancy join us. After that, we hung around the house and ate dinner before we went out and TOT around the neighborhood. I was so surprised how well Audrey did. My whole thought process before we went was that I was going to have to give her a piece of the candy to show her that she was getting treats because I really thought she was not going to go up to people and get it from them. But to my surprise she was an absolute pro at this. You wouldn't think that this would be her first year doing this. I even had one person ask me how old she is because she just so good at going up to them and saying, 'ick o eee'! :) Needless to say she was so exhausted from the whole day that she slept REALLY good through the night!

Extremely Late but Happy 4th Birthday Jaden!!

It was such an awesome party! My mom and sister did a great job putting all of this together. Happy 4th birthday Jaden! I can't believe it's been four years since he's been born. It feels just like yesterday I was going up with my sister to see him in the NICU from being born at albs and 8 ozs! I love being his aunt and it has been a joy being able to watch him grow up into this incredible handsome and smart little boy that consistently asks me all about Star Wars!! Love you lots Jaden!

Beautiful

There are times where I will sit and wonder whether God has somebody out there for me and when He will finally reveal the person who I am meant to be with; if there is such a person. Is there someone who will love me for all that I am? But what kind of question is that when the One that created me, loves me enough to die for me. Why would I question that and why should it not be enough?

'Beautiful' - Mercy Me

Days will come when you don't have the strength
And all you hear is you're not worth anything
Wondering if you ever could be loved
And if they truly saw your heart
They'd see too much

You're beautiful, You're beautiful
You are made for so much more than all of this
You're beautiful, You're beautiful
You are treasured, you are sacred, you are His
You're beautiful

Praying that you have the heart to fight
Cuz you are more than what is hurting you tonight
For all the lies you've held inside so long
But they are nothing in the shadow of the cross

You're beautiful, You're beautiful
You are made for so much more than all of this
You're beautiful, You're beautiful
You are treasured, you are sacred, you are His
You're beautiful

Before you ever took a breath
Long before the world began
Of all the wonders He possessed
There was one more precious
Of all the earth and skies above
You're the one He madly loves
Enough to die!

You're beautiful, You're beautiful
In His eyes

You're beautiful!
You are made for so much more than all of this
You're beautiful!
You are treasured, you are sacred, you are His
You're beautiful!
You are made for so much more than all of this
You're beautiful!
You are treasured
You are sacred
You are His

Thank you Lord Jesus for loving me the way that I am. Whether or not you have somebody planned to be my husband, I should and will know that You are enough. Thank you for loving me enough to die on the cross for me.

My 3 nephews

Love them!

Struggling...

I really been struggling lately. I feel like as if I'm walking, when I try to take a step forward, my foot just seems to dangle there in midair, trying to figure out which way to go. Then, out of nowhere, Julie starts to listen to my favorite Relient K cd 'Mhmm', and it goes to this one song called 'More than Useless'. It never ceases to amaze me how God can talk to me through the smallest things. I've listened to this sone numerous times but it never really affected me before the way it does now. Thank you God for never giving up on me or stop loving me.

"More Than Useless"

I feel like, I would like
To be somewhere else doing something that matters
And I'll admit here, while I sit here
My mind wastes away and my doubts start to gather

Whats the purpose? It feels worthless
So unwanted like I've lost all my value
I can't find it, not in the least bit
and I'm just scared, so scared that I'll fail you

And sometimes I think that I'm not any good at all
And sometimes I wonder why, why I'm even here at all
But then you assure me

I'm a little more than useless
And when I think that I can't do this
You promise me that I'll get through this
And do something right
Do something right for once

So I say if I can't, do something significant
I'll opt to leave most opportunities wasted
And nothing trivial, that life could give me will
Measure up to what might have replaced it

Too late look, my date book
Is packed full of days that were empty and now gone
And I bet, that regret
Will prove to get me to improve in the long run

And sometimes I think that I'm not any good at all
And sometimes I wonder why, why I'm even here at all
But then you assure me

I'm a little more than useless
And when I think that I can't do this
You promise me that I'll get through this
And do something right
Do something right for once

I’m a little more than useless
And I never knew I knew this
Was gonna the day, gonna be the day
That I would do something right
Do something right for once

I notice, I know this
Week is a symbol of how I use my time
Resent it, I spent it
Convincing myself the world's doing just fine
Without me
Doing anything of any consequence
Without me
Showing any sign of ever making sense
Of my time , it's my life
And my right, to use it like I should
Like he would, for the good
Of everything that I would ever know

I'm a little more than useless
When I think that I can't do this
You promise me that I'll get through this
And do something right
Do something right for once

I’m a little more than useless
And I never knew I knew this
Was gonna the day, gonna be the day
That I would do something right
Do something right for once

Bridgeport Village

On Sunday, Audrey, Grandma, grandpa, and myself went to Bridgeport to shop and play in the little kids area that they have in the middle of their shopping area. Audrey ended yp playing in this little fountain/splash pad the whole entire time. (the kids play area was more targeted to kids 5 & up.) It was really hot out so it was nice to be able to play around in the water. We ate at Pastini's and had some yummy gelato for desert.

My new nephew

Welcome to my new baby nephew: Jayce K. Rogers!! He was born 7.10.10 at 1:16pm. He weighed in at 7lb 13oz and was 20 in. long!





Audrey loves her new cousin! Anytime he is around and she sees him, she will run up to him saying, 'BABY! BABY!'. It makes me happy that she always wants to see Jayce and want to kiss his toes and be a good big cousin instead of being a little stinker and not want anything to do with him at all.

Seeing Jenny go through her pregnancy and birth made me want to look back at all the photos of Audrey as a baby. It makes me all teary eyed to look back at all the photos and videos I have of her as a baby and just realizing that I DON'T have a baby anymore. I have a toddler. *sniff* She is just growing up too fast! It Literally FLEW right by! I just love her to pieces!

I cannot get enough of my new nephew! He is just the cutest thing ever! I am so PROUD to be an aunt of three boys! I love them all!